I Love How Much I Hate You
Van Gogh's Grandsons
#VERSE
Lauren’s best friend Kayla
Punched her ego to the ground
It takes a dedicated friend
To accept being cut down
Kayla bad-mouthed all that Lauren was
The way she spoke, the way she sang
Through insults born of jealousy
Kayla showed her sharpened fangs
#PRE-CHORUS
Rising up
From pain inside
Lauren doubled
How hard she tried
#VERSE
Growing up like sisters
Played Barbie dolls in second grade
Insecurities hit Kayla young
At church she mocked how Lauren prayed
Years later, both girls joined a band
Kayla griped, “You’re always out of tune”
Down, down, down Lauren’s ego fell
And though Lauren sang well, her heart was not immune
#PRE-CHORUS
And rising up
From pain inside
Lauren’s heart
No longer lied
She thought..
#CHORUS
I love how much I hate you
Like seeds, this hate sprouts deep inside
Started small, long years ago
Been fertilized by your cruel pride
Your steel words slice into me
Can’t praise me in what I pursue
I once loved everything we were
Now I love how much I hate you
#INSTRUMENTAL
I love how much I hate you
I love how much I hate you
How much I hate you
#BRIDGE
Lauren vowed to stand up tall
Rehearsed the words she’d like to say
Arranged to meet Kayla for lunch
Down at Grayson’s Grand Buffet
Through two rounds of boring food
And one plate of divine desserts
Lauren tried six times to explain
Kayla turned the conversation to herself
Called Lauren’s concepts boring…
And Lauren’s soul still hurts
#INSTRUMENTAL
#VERSE
An accident occurred last week
Kayla in a car crash, now in ICU
Lauren went and held her hand
Recounted to Kayla all that they’d been through
But Kayla didn’t hear it
Through the IV morphine blur
Still Lauren’s shackled heart was free
From getting to finish what she’d rehearsed…
#CHORUS
I love how much I hate you
Like seeds, this hate sprouts deep inside
But even though its hatred
It’s still love, and that can’t be denied
Back in the days of Barbie dolls
I became your dedicated friend
And I love how much I hate you
But I’ll love you till the end
#OUTRO
Through all the shifting scenes of life
I’ll always be your one best friend
I love how much I hate you
But I’ll love you till the end
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